My Buddy is Dead

I dont know, about a year ago I seen him walking down my street with another dog or two and I fell in love immediately. Before he came to me I always wanted a chocolate lab... he was much better imo. I it hurts so bad just to know that he gone and I could get another dog... I could search the world and inspect every dog on this planet and I could never find another Buddy ever. If I lived forever just searching for him, Id never find him, thats real loss. My friend I use to work with told me "At least he had love and didn't die on the streets abandoned". We dont know how he died all we know is that he ran away but would hang around the house barking on everyones porch and when you would try to get him he'd run from you, fast. I tried to get him one last time before I went to bed then Leesha seen him and tried to get him after she got off work at around 600am or later then at 745am when I went to take the kids to school, we seen him. On the porch. lying down. sleep, is what I thought at first, he couldnt possibly be... then I kicked him in the rear and it was clear. The kids all saw him. They took it pretty well. No one really loved him like I did. In a way its our fault we gave him food and love but we never really gave him exercise, he was so desperate for it he jumped our 5 ft fence to get out and get some several times. We dont know how it happened but a neighbor said she knows a kid who loves to beat animals with a baseball bat, that could be it, could have been a car there were no marks on him. Were gonna bury him today. He died yesterday. When I first seen him I knew he was a gift from God. God thank you for the time we had together and the love he gave us.

My Philanthropist dream

I was in a house in the hood (what hood idk), across the street I saw an abandoned house with boarded up windows. The house was huge and there were people living in it lots of people! Half of them I know from lot industries. I walked up to the house and when I got to the door I appeared to be crawling, I asked for someone to come to me but no one would they all seemed scared and started leaving. I kept asking them why they were living in there but no one would respond then after everyone in the house left people from the neighborhood started coming to the house. I told them this house needed to come down and they agreed. I started thinking of ways we could raise the money to do it. I then started picturing a basketball court in its place - people around me still saw a broken house but all I could see was the court, all the basketball rims were in the wrong place but it was still a nice court kids started playing in it and adults were just smiling like they were happy. One adult female said she really really needed this because her son was getting into trouble, she was very happy about it and that was the end of the dream, except when I was half awake I kept picturing myself giving away 90,000 dollars and of course Leesha being upset about it and I felt like the amount really hurt my bank account but I had to have faith that God is in control and I had to let that money go and do its thing.